Toe-Dipping



My first post on my new site. How exciting! How terrifying! What the hell am I thinking? I'm good at writing from a 3rd person perspective. I can whip up an article in no time flat. What I am not so adept at doing is sharing feelings with strangers, or even friends. Being authentic is difficult in this day and age as it is, but throw in my INFJ personality and my upbringing, and this could be a recipe for disaster!

Writing isn't new to me. I love it. I live for it in all its forms. I am constantly either writing or thinking about something I want to write about.  I've been blogging since 2009, and editing online news sites as well. Words are beautiful creatures to me. As a child, I read the dictionary for fun, and each word has a special meaning and etymology to me. You would think that this intimate connection would make confessional writing a breeze.

Not so much.

I'm a very private person, and I don't trust easily. It's part of that whole INFJ persona. People tend to gravitate toward me, and find that they can talk to me about a lot of things. I don't feel the same way about people. I've had folks fight over who knows me better, and there are times when I want to scream, "None of you knows me! I don't share that part of me with anyone!!" But, I don't want to be a jerk, and it isn't their fault that I don't share. It isn't personal. I like people. I just don't have a desire to share my innermost thoughts and feelings with anyone outside a very small (I'm talking miniscule) group of people. Even then, I'm not sure anyone really knows me but me. Maybe you feel that way, too? I'm hoping at least one or two of you do.

I'm from an area of the world in which we were taught not to 'air your dirty laundry' in public. For me to open up and say what I'm really thinking and feeling is going to take an internal act of congress. I'm hoping it's more effective than the one we have in Washington DC at the moment.

This is going to end up being a hodge-podge of whatever is on my mind at the moment, so I have no real theme, other than to polish the mirror of my soul. That'll be my next post, so stay tuned and wish me luck!







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